I was watching an Episode of Rome last night and it reminded me of an article I had read. the article related Greco/Roman gods and goddesses to relationship emotional control systems. It's sort of cheesy, it also relates these gods/goddesses to the zodiac and the enneagram. My favorite article was on the Persephone and Hades relationship: http://en.wikibooks.org/wiki/Relationships/Hades-Persephone. It inspired me to do a tribute to my own personal Hades lover to thank him for agreeing to the experience and for being a geniune help to me when I needed it.
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| http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Persephone |
I remember when I was in the depths of the worst part of doing inner work, I was about to square off with Death. I had a sense that something was holding me back. I knew deep down exactly what that was and what I needed to do. I met my Hades under rather dubious clandestine circumstances. As fate would have it he was someone I had met years before but never really talked to. He had a Don Juan reputation that proceeded him. I don't think I would have done it if he had been a new acquaintance. He had many rumors about him, I had heard that he was a jerk, he was nasty, he was this and that. The first time I went to his home I was nervous. Oh I had talked a big game but in reality, up until that night I had basically been rather prude and definitely traditional compared to my peers as far as the bedroom went. I had yet to fully tap into that taboo side of myself, it always felt too dangerous. I wasn't sure what would happen. I knew it was time to give myself over to someone with experience.
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| http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hades |
I explained to him where I was in my life and what I was endeavoring to do by being with him. He knew I was trying to release myself from something. We had a little discussion about things and so our brief time together began. I found him to be surprisingly sensitive, intelligent, engaging, polite, considerate, even a little intimate, 100% gentleman. He was patient, accommodating and willing to comply with any request I might have. We always ended our time together with a lengthy discussion about our interests or about life lessons. He felt oddly familiar, even comfortable to be around. We had many common interest and taste. I became mused by him. I didn't want a relationship with him by any other means but something was telling me to remain close with him a little while longer even after I felt I had achieved what I needed to.
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| Eleusian Mysteries: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eleusinian_Mysteries |
During our time together I had found the article mentioned above. It blew my mind "If done properly sexual expression can lead to deep spiritual and psychological transformation as well as emotional. It gives the Hades/Persephone archetype something to "chew" on so that both are rendered free from the "bond" that binded them in the first place. Things such as fear, sexual abuse, emotional abuse, are common here. Also, repressed sexuality based on any of these things can hinder a true Persephone from growing and becoming sexually ripe. With the right hades she can move across the stifling dimensions of past lives, break down emotional barriers and find herself fully awakened by the PROCESS of being reborn. The right hades man will take pleasure in her submission, because it is a GIFT. Persephone is not weak by nature, she is seeking something greater than being the bringer of spring. She represents true change and deep psychological growth and requires restriction in order for it to be felt, integrated, sifted through and truly transformed. Letting go, allowing hades to shape her, mold her, seduce her, and take her into realms beyond her wildest mind is what allows her to renew and thus see and ACCEPT herself as she truly is. Hades will love her the more she submits, releases, and integrates parts of herself she would not have found had she not surrendered. She comes out empowered, whole, powerful, and wields that power in her walk, her sexuality and her treatment of others. Hades feels stronger,capable and is allowed to push her limits, to find himself, to love himself and to find greater parts of himself that NEEDS to dominate. Not to control her every being, to change who she is but to mold her, massage her, to assist in her birthing process as he releases her bondage, her chains and her self misunderstandings"
My experience wasn't as scandalous or involved as described in the article (well maybe a little) but it fit the mold none the less. After I got the emotional release I needed I had a powerfully vivid dream about freeing a black panther from her cage and kneeling to look her in the eyes at I pet her. Then returning her home. The symbolism was obvious. The article even describes a Hades man as a drummer in a rock band. He totally had been, not to mention that I seem to attract drummers regularly (Ah!). It did become obvious later on that the effect was mutual. Later on I prayed with him, gave him a cleansing and a massage (yeah I'm a weirdo at times). His reaction to it startled me. He just sat there afterward in his own world dazed. Perhaps something had been released. Sometime after that he had informed me that he begun his own inner work. He was already starting to look more vital.
As similarly described in the article, we were two people at a cross roads in life. I was on the cusp of 30 and him on the cusp of 40. Both of us having to leave childish/adolescent ideals behind and set free from old deep rooted pain to get out of our ruts. Both of us having been affected deeply by pain from our pasts that had us stuck in some aspect of our life. When I got insight to the core missing puzzle piece that had been driving unhealthy patterns in my life he was one of the three people I told the details to. Something in me wanted to share that with him the day following that break through. He played such a huge part in helping me to get to that moment that I wanted him to feel a similar feeling of being freed up. So I helped him to get rid of some of the debris he had been clinging to that was preventing him from feeling fully comfortable in his home; just as he had helped me to feel more at "home" in my own skin. People need people and sometimes life can take you down the strangest roads. Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined that I'd be doing massage, be baptised or writing about personal growth. In my old life I most likely would have bullied someone like me. It just goes to show "Ya Neva Know". Although my Hades and I are not close friends we are still friends just the same and I'm sure we always will be. I love the songs for this post, perfect!
